Garbha Pindasana through Upavishta Konasana

The end of the Primary Series is coming on fast...

It's odd because it took six months or more for me to get past Marichyasana D and then about four more to get past Kurmasana, but now E is throwing asanas at me like banks threw toxic mortgages at the feds in '09. About a month ago he taught me Garbha Pindasana and Kukkutasana, and then just this morning I got Baddha Konasana and Upavistha Konasana.

It definitely feels like (my continuing nemesis) Kurmasana is the "peak" of the Primary Series, because following that and Garbha Pindasana, everything else I'm doing feels like a come down in a way. In a good way. Getting into Urdhva Dhanurasana is WAY EASIER when I'm not doing it straight out of Supta Kurmasana or Kukkutasana.

Anyway, I wonder if I'll be practicing full Primary by the end of the year. That would be neat, although I think all of those engage your bandhas and balance on your Sitz bones asanas will probably hold me up. My balance is for $#!%.

Baby Got (Bad) Back

I had a spasm on Sunday. It's actually been quite a long time since I've had one (about 1.5 years). I was all freaked out. Despite the fact that my doctor once said to me, "You have to remember, once you've injured your back, you're always the guy with the bad back. Be careful!" I somehow thought it would never happen to me again. Despite the fact that the last time this happened to me, I was flat on my back for two weeks and in pain for an entire month, I ignored his advice.

I suppose I thought that because of my ashtanga practice (and my increased core strength and flexibility and so on and so on), I was no longer the guy with the bad back. So I hauled a 30 lb. bag of laundry down to the laundry room, plopped it in front of a machine, bent down (not squatting, or course) to start loading up the machine and...

CRUNCH! CRACK! SPASMMMMM!!!

It really sucked. I ended up laying down Sunday and Monday, but then by Tuesday... I was fine. No, really. I skipped ashtanga all three days, but I went back this morning. I'm totally still stiff, but I don't have any pain, and I did entirely reasonable versions of every asana. The only modifications E gave me were ones that helped to expand my lower back; I didn't have to do any "easier" variations. Sure, I didn't go as deep; sure, I took my time and added 20 minutes to my usual 1 hour, 20 minute practice; sure, I'll be working out the kinks for the next week or more.

But I'm not flat on my back, and I'm not in pain. It's got to be the practice, right? That core strength and daily opening must be helping to minimize my recovery time. So maybe I'm still the guy with the bad back, but I'm now the guy with the bad back who does ashtanga.


And for those who'd like to know, E walked me through Janu Sirsasana C to make it even more beneficial for my lower back (above is a clip of someone doing Janu Sirsasana A, B, and C). The gist is to be sure your hips are square, your Sitz bones are grounded, and that everything in the front of your body moves inward ("implodes" was the word he used). In other words, the thigh of your extended leg should push in against the twisted foot of your bent leg and vice versa. Mula and Uddiyana Bandha should be engaged. That way as you fold forward, your back spreads out. He had me do ten breaths on both sides instead of the usual five, and it felt awesome.

A Pain in the Ass

That's what I have.

Somewhere around my left outer hip, I have this thing that is constantly opening and contracting, which I've been struggling with for nearly a month now. For a week or so, it was super painful just sitting because my Sitz bone would stab into it. I know it's the Kurmasana/Supta Kurmasana adventure that started it all, and I'm trying to be at peace with that pose. But I can't help it: I hate Kurmasana.

It freaks me out a little. And that stiffens me up and that makes it harder to do and that freaks me out more... I'm stuck in an endless loop of, "Why am I doing this?"

The thing is, I know that this will pass. As I come to relax in the posture, as I open up, my fear of the posture (and the pain in my ass) will go away. I mean, I do Mari D everyday now, and my feelings toward that pose have gone from amazed to hateful to frustrated to excited to ecstatic to... well, now I don't think about it as all that positive or negative at all.

Which is where this is going isn't it? To that place where you experience your emotions (and body and everything else) but you don't attach to them.

Still, right now it's hard to believe that Kurmasana will ever be that to me.

Bhujapidasana through Supta Kurmasana

Holy f*ck.

I have gotten to the point where I can bind independently in Marichyasana D about 3 or 4 times a week. It usually takes about 3 or 4 tries on the first side, but I am actually able to do my twisty, knotted version of the asana. It's starting to feel all right, too.

Today, seeing me do it on my own for the second time this week, E decided I was ready to move ahead. Great! I thought. I'm making progress. And so, I finish up my 5 Navasanas and then there it is...

Bhujapidasana.

Look, I knew it was next and everything. I take a led class about once a month to challenge myself. But when I get to the second half of the primary series, I just kind of muddle through, modify freely, don't judge myself, and do whatever I can. Today though he taught me how to enter the pose properly, and he taught me the transition to Bakasana and then out to my vinyasa. E pulled my legs straight and twisted them till the knees faced upward in Kurmasana and insisted that I lengthen my spine to put my chin on the ground, not my forehead. He even pulled my hands together in Supta Kurmasana, although he left my feet with just the toes touching.

Oh... my... god. I already feel some soreness setting in. Doing those poses properly -- even modified -- is probably the most intense thing I've done so far. Even those first times in Marichyasana C and D don't compare. As difficult as those were for me (and as Mari D still is), I feel like I know where to focus. For Mari C, if I just lengthen and twist, I'm golden. For Mari D, it's about the lean forward and the exhale as I really push my shoulder forward.

With these new poses, though, there's so much going on that I can't even begin to breakdown my focus. I know it will come with time, but I really felt like a beginner today.